Hey!
Typical story of the battery being low on my laptop...
Anyways, my morning was absolutely horrid. I won't share my misfortune with you, but one thing after the other went awry, and I felt like crying (for a moment, I think I did, really quickly though, nothing serious).
My morning was disgusting. I got to school (very nearly late of course), without having breakfast. I also hadn't packed anything to munch on during class (Some teachers let you, and the ones that don't- well you know, I'm not eating apples or anything). I had two tests today, and I feel like 80s and 90s are coming my way. We'll see how tomorrow's tests go.
My hair was really weird today too. I decided last night that I would braid my hair into a bunch of separate braids, and then braid it into one big braid. When I woke up, my hair looked at though it had been crimped or something. I mean, it was ALRIGHT. My hair is naturally curly, and I've been flat ironing it constantly (horrible, I know) for the past 4-5 months, and I've become very vain when it comes to my hair. Actually, I feel like I've betrayed my curly hair. People actually don't remember it anymore. People who I've known forever! The people who I haven't know forever, they REALLY don't remember. I should be standing up for curly hair or something, but that's a crusade I don't have the energy to lead (but I have the energy to straighten my hair every couple of days, ha).
I remember the days where if I came home past 8 and I still had an essay to write, I would freak out. Those days are long gone. That's normal now. Normal.
(WARNING: This is not one of those coherent- made to make sense- paragraphs)
I'm reading Great Expectations, as I've mentioned before, and there's something that Pip's family always says to him that I can really relate to. His sister (who raised him) and the adults around him are constantly saying "You should be grateful for this... You should be grateful for that... You are lucky that we took the time to raise you..." I get that a lot. I should be grateful that I have a family who decided to keep me. Both sides of my family come from countries that have these deeply rooted old beliefs that are very alive today, and that's why my grandparents and my parents say similar things. Pip's family said it in a meaner way, whereas my family doesn't say it in a mean way, but it does make me feel sort of- well- should I be sorry? Am I guilty, because I'm alive? I understand the gratefulness part, because we should be grateful for what we receive. However, the part about families making the decision to keep you, I find inherently wrong. When my grandparents say stuff like that, they're not literally saying, "You know, we had to think about it. Then, we ultimately decided- out of the goodness of our hearts- that perhaps we should let you live". They're just trying to teach me a lesson about being humble and grateful. The saying itself though goes against how much families are supposed to love each other. What about when a mother or father sees their child for the first time, after months of waiting, and they see them as the most beautiful things in the world? The decision pertaining to whether or not to keep them is not at all what is running through their minds. So, I guess a saying is a saying. It just bothers me, because it's almost meant to make kids feel like a burden. By just using a few sentences like those, Dickens was able to help the reader feel what Pip felt and get a gist of how the family unit is structured. That's pretty awesome. And THAT! was my ramble on for the day!
You see, this is how I get my brain juice stirring.
BYE! <3
-D.F.T.B.A.-
Mina;)
-D.F.T.B.A.-
Mina;)
Typical story of the battery being low on my laptop...
Anyways, my morning was absolutely horrid. I won't share my misfortune with you, but one thing after the other went awry, and I felt like crying (for a moment, I think I did, really quickly though, nothing serious).
My morning was disgusting. I got to school (very nearly late of course), without having breakfast. I also hadn't packed anything to munch on during class (Some teachers let you, and the ones that don't- well you know, I'm not eating apples or anything). I had two tests today, and I feel like 80s and 90s are coming my way. We'll see how tomorrow's tests go.
My hair was really weird today too. I decided last night that I would braid my hair into a bunch of separate braids, and then braid it into one big braid. When I woke up, my hair looked at though it had been crimped or something. I mean, it was ALRIGHT. My hair is naturally curly, and I've been flat ironing it constantly (horrible, I know) for the past 4-5 months, and I've become very vain when it comes to my hair. Actually, I feel like I've betrayed my curly hair. People actually don't remember it anymore. People who I've known forever! The people who I haven't know forever, they REALLY don't remember. I should be standing up for curly hair or something, but that's a crusade I don't have the energy to lead (but I have the energy to straighten my hair every couple of days, ha).
I remember the days where if I came home past 8 and I still had an essay to write, I would freak out. Those days are long gone. That's normal now. Normal.
(WARNING: This is not one of those coherent- made to make sense- paragraphs)
I'm reading Great Expectations, as I've mentioned before, and there's something that Pip's family always says to him that I can really relate to. His sister (who raised him) and the adults around him are constantly saying "You should be grateful for this... You should be grateful for that... You are lucky that we took the time to raise you..." I get that a lot. I should be grateful that I have a family who decided to keep me. Both sides of my family come from countries that have these deeply rooted old beliefs that are very alive today, and that's why my grandparents and my parents say similar things. Pip's family said it in a meaner way, whereas my family doesn't say it in a mean way, but it does make me feel sort of- well- should I be sorry? Am I guilty, because I'm alive? I understand the gratefulness part, because we should be grateful for what we receive. However, the part about families making the decision to keep you, I find inherently wrong. When my grandparents say stuff like that, they're not literally saying, "You know, we had to think about it. Then, we ultimately decided- out of the goodness of our hearts- that perhaps we should let you live". They're just trying to teach me a lesson about being humble and grateful. The saying itself though goes against how much families are supposed to love each other. What about when a mother or father sees their child for the first time, after months of waiting, and they see them as the most beautiful things in the world? The decision pertaining to whether or not to keep them is not at all what is running through their minds. So, I guess a saying is a saying. It just bothers me, because it's almost meant to make kids feel like a burden. By just using a few sentences like those, Dickens was able to help the reader feel what Pip felt and get a gist of how the family unit is structured. That's pretty awesome. And THAT! was my ramble on for the day!
You see, this is how I get my brain juice stirring.
BYE! <3
-D.F.T.B.A.-
Mina;)
-D.F.T.B.A.-
Mina;)
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