Hello!
I don't really have much to write about today, so I'll just ask a question that I really need to know the answer to.
Do you ever think about moments in the past where you might have felt embarrassment, fear, or extreme happiness and then just let those memories fill you up to the point where you react to them all of over again? I do this all of the time. If I think about things that I might have done, or had done to me, and those memories are potent enough to make me go through those emotions again, I sometimes let out a little shiver or squeeze my eyes shut.
When positive, those memories can flood back into my thoughts and I'll find myself happy all over again. When negative, I'm usually being critical of myself. I am constantly reliving the past in my head, and thinking about what I could have done better or what I should have said. Just thinking about things that make me embarrassed get my fists to ball up. Does this ever happen to you? Or am I just overly critical of myself?
I always try and forget about it quickly, because otherwise reanalyzing the situation would consume my every thought. However, the little things always manage to creep back into my brain and shake me up again.
Just today, in theatre, I was an absolute train wreck. I mean, I could try and explain the scenario to you, but simply: I was horrible.
One more cringeworthy memory to haunt me I suppose!
-D.F.T.B.A.-
Mina;)
I don't really have much to write about today, so I'll just ask a question that I really need to know the answer to.
Do you ever think about moments in the past where you might have felt embarrassment, fear, or extreme happiness and then just let those memories fill you up to the point where you react to them all of over again? I do this all of the time. If I think about things that I might have done, or had done to me, and those memories are potent enough to make me go through those emotions again, I sometimes let out a little shiver or squeeze my eyes shut.
When positive, those memories can flood back into my thoughts and I'll find myself happy all over again. When negative, I'm usually being critical of myself. I am constantly reliving the past in my head, and thinking about what I could have done better or what I should have said. Just thinking about things that make me embarrassed get my fists to ball up. Does this ever happen to you? Or am I just overly critical of myself?
I always try and forget about it quickly, because otherwise reanalyzing the situation would consume my every thought. However, the little things always manage to creep back into my brain and shake me up again.
Just today, in theatre, I was an absolute train wreck. I mean, I could try and explain the scenario to you, but simply: I was horrible.
One more cringeworthy memory to haunt me I suppose!
-D.F.T.B.A.-
Mina;)
I get that mostly when I'm happy or ecxited about something. I just think about it..... Gahh thats so awesome I love it omgggggg! And I choke myself silently to keep from laughing out loud.
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