Hello!
Today, I helped Tulsi write her research paper for the science fair... Yeah... Not much to be said on the subject :) Later, I'll add a picture of these chalk drawings Tulsi tried to do of me. I think that they came out really well... They really sort of look like me!
I went to a Halloween party at Ella's house. We watched a movie and ate brownies. Mostly, we embarrassed Rai. That was fun. No harm done though!
I thought about stubborn people when I got home though. Everyone knows some stubborn people. I know a lot of stubborn people. I think that you really know the person when you're able to manipulate their stubbornness into being less stubborn. However, why people are stubborn is sort of interesting.
I brought home a catalogue thing for environmental club around a week ago. It's a fundraiser, so we have to sell as much as we can. The thing is, a family member of mine went ahead and ordered around 13 things from this catalogue. Now, if you can imagine, these were pretty frivolous things, and in the end it would cost around a hundred and fifty dollars. Anyways, a part of me was like, "Yay! WIN!". But, I was really feeling more like this family member was wasting their money. I felt kind of bad about it, especially because the content of the order wasn't very... you know...
Today, I approached this family member and asked them if they would like to just keep the money and not order everything, because I was concerned that they were spending too much money. As sweetly as I could put it, NOTHING was going to make them take back the money. I guess that it's their choice, and I realize that I should respect their decision. I just can't understand why you would spend so much money on tee shirts and chocolate. I felt really bad, like they were spending all of their money or something.
I sort of think that they took it personally though, and no matter how I phrased it, or how logical I sounded, it couldn't be helped. They were going to buy those tee shirts and chocolate.
A part of me was really pissed and frustrated. Why are you going to spend all of that money? Why aren't you listening to me? I MAKE SENSE. I DO.
But, I guess that there is some part of everyone that just wants to be right. They want to be correct, and even if they aren't, they can at least find solace in believing that they are. So, that is sort of the definition of stubbornness. I don't think that stubborn people are one-sided, or that they aren't seeing reason.
They see reason, they do. I'm pretty sure that stubborn people are well aware of when they're being stubborn. I can be stubborn sometimes, I don't know when, but I'm sure it's probably happened (I'm not very stubborn).
Anyways, I think that people act in a stubborn way when they feel attacked I guess. There is a part of you that just shuts down and wants something to turn out a certain way. You just react in a defensive way, like you want what you want, and you don't really want to talk about it, nor are you always sure why you want whatever it is you want, you just do.
Maybe for a lot of people, being stubborn is the only way that they are in control of a situation. You, all of a sudden, have the power to just disagree and say, "No".
Whatever it is, I have a disease that causes me to act out once in awhile. It's sort of an "I'm RIGHT!" sort of thing. Whenever something happens, and I swear I'm right (and believe me, I am), and the person opposite me is someone who is stubborn, who is obviously wrong, I can get a little worked up.
I am very bias, don't listen to a word I say (even though I'm right).
So, whenever every bone in my body swears that something is true, and i could sit around all day talking about why it's true, I suddenly get all passionate about things that may not even really matter.
There's a formula for pissing me off. If you add me, a person who disagrees with me, and a topic with a logical answer, I get weird. It's as if the whole world revolves around me making sure that this person understands that they are WRONG, and that I am RIGHT.
It is my pet peeve. If someone is so obviously wrong, why can't they see it? Why can't they just own up to being wrong? Why are you arguing with me, if I'm RIGHT!
I think some people just like seeing me get worked up. Some people just egg me on, I swear, just for the fun of me going to great lengths (I've cited books and the internet. I call upon bystanders for help. I call upon other people, if there are no bystanders. I stay up all night thinking about the perfect argument.) to prove them wrong.
It drives me nuts.
I'M RIGHT, AND YOU'RE WRONG GENIUS! I'm difficult, oh God, I'm so difficult.
So, what is the irony in all of this? What have you learned? I guess I'm a little stubborn, too. I officially own up to being the anti-stubborn, because I'm not stubbornly defending the wrong thing, I'm stubbornly trying to convince everyone of the truth. I'm the anti-stubborn, because I'm stubbornly right, and no one can disagree with me, because then they'd be wrong. Get how that works?
I'm so glad that I'm the only person who has the power to write this, so no one can disagree with me. Also, I can delete comments. So, Javas, if you were going to write paragraphs on end about how stubborn I am, or how headstrong I am, you should know that I will delete them immediately.
:)
-D.F.T.B.A.-
Mina;)
Confession: Currently, I've narrowed down what I want to be to
A) Author (this has been the only thing I've ever wanted to be since 2nd Grade)
B) Teacher (What a load to get off my chest, peoples' response is always something along the lines of "noble" and "poor", same thing with author)
C) Stage/ Set Design
A funny story is that I am extremely anal about visuals. You should see my bedroom. It is my favorite place in the world, because I have such a beautiful bedroom, and I just really love it in there. Even when my room is a mess, it looks pretty. Anyways, when I was on film duty in theatre, I was extremely crazy about everything aligning correctly on camera. I would look through the lens, the run to the set and tweak something, then run back and check, then run back to the set and tweak again. Mind you, I would move something less than an inch in any direction. I just really like for things to align, and for things to be strait and even, and when they don't, it sort of hurts my eyes. I'm a bit of a perfectionist when it comes to some things, but my locker... That's a whole other story. Something new falls out every time I open it. I keep so much crap. I'm so messy, that it's disgusting. Around 3 people, including Maia and Ella, have asked to clean my locker for me. My dad calls me some sort of hybrid of a perfectionist and a free spirit. I don't make any sense.
11:57! I've been cutting is so close these days!
Today, I helped Tulsi write her research paper for the science fair... Yeah... Not much to be said on the subject :) Later, I'll add a picture of these chalk drawings Tulsi tried to do of me. I think that they came out really well... They really sort of look like me!
I went to a Halloween party at Ella's house. We watched a movie and ate brownies. Mostly, we embarrassed Rai. That was fun. No harm done though!
I thought about stubborn people when I got home though. Everyone knows some stubborn people. I know a lot of stubborn people. I think that you really know the person when you're able to manipulate their stubbornness into being less stubborn. However, why people are stubborn is sort of interesting.
I brought home a catalogue thing for environmental club around a week ago. It's a fundraiser, so we have to sell as much as we can. The thing is, a family member of mine went ahead and ordered around 13 things from this catalogue. Now, if you can imagine, these were pretty frivolous things, and in the end it would cost around a hundred and fifty dollars. Anyways, a part of me was like, "Yay! WIN!". But, I was really feeling more like this family member was wasting their money. I felt kind of bad about it, especially because the content of the order wasn't very... you know...
Today, I approached this family member and asked them if they would like to just keep the money and not order everything, because I was concerned that they were spending too much money. As sweetly as I could put it, NOTHING was going to make them take back the money. I guess that it's their choice, and I realize that I should respect their decision. I just can't understand why you would spend so much money on tee shirts and chocolate. I felt really bad, like they were spending all of their money or something.
I sort of think that they took it personally though, and no matter how I phrased it, or how logical I sounded, it couldn't be helped. They were going to buy those tee shirts and chocolate.
A part of me was really pissed and frustrated. Why are you going to spend all of that money? Why aren't you listening to me? I MAKE SENSE. I DO.
But, I guess that there is some part of everyone that just wants to be right. They want to be correct, and even if they aren't, they can at least find solace in believing that they are. So, that is sort of the definition of stubbornness. I don't think that stubborn people are one-sided, or that they aren't seeing reason.
They see reason, they do. I'm pretty sure that stubborn people are well aware of when they're being stubborn. I can be stubborn sometimes, I don't know when, but I'm sure it's probably happened (I'm not very stubborn).
Anyways, I think that people act in a stubborn way when they feel attacked I guess. There is a part of you that just shuts down and wants something to turn out a certain way. You just react in a defensive way, like you want what you want, and you don't really want to talk about it, nor are you always sure why you want whatever it is you want, you just do.
Maybe for a lot of people, being stubborn is the only way that they are in control of a situation. You, all of a sudden, have the power to just disagree and say, "No".
Whatever it is, I have a disease that causes me to act out once in awhile. It's sort of an "I'm RIGHT!" sort of thing. Whenever something happens, and I swear I'm right (and believe me, I am), and the person opposite me is someone who is stubborn, who is obviously wrong, I can get a little worked up.
I am very bias, don't listen to a word I say (even though I'm right).
So, whenever every bone in my body swears that something is true, and i could sit around all day talking about why it's true, I suddenly get all passionate about things that may not even really matter.
There's a formula for pissing me off. If you add me, a person who disagrees with me, and a topic with a logical answer, I get weird. It's as if the whole world revolves around me making sure that this person understands that they are WRONG, and that I am RIGHT.
It is my pet peeve. If someone is so obviously wrong, why can't they see it? Why can't they just own up to being wrong? Why are you arguing with me, if I'm RIGHT!
I think some people just like seeing me get worked up. Some people just egg me on, I swear, just for the fun of me going to great lengths (I've cited books and the internet. I call upon bystanders for help. I call upon other people, if there are no bystanders. I stay up all night thinking about the perfect argument.) to prove them wrong.
It drives me nuts.
I'M RIGHT, AND YOU'RE WRONG GENIUS! I'm difficult, oh God, I'm so difficult.
So, what is the irony in all of this? What have you learned? I guess I'm a little stubborn, too. I officially own up to being the anti-stubborn, because I'm not stubbornly defending the wrong thing, I'm stubbornly trying to convince everyone of the truth. I'm the anti-stubborn, because I'm stubbornly right, and no one can disagree with me, because then they'd be wrong. Get how that works?
I'm so glad that I'm the only person who has the power to write this, so no one can disagree with me. Also, I can delete comments. So, Javas, if you were going to write paragraphs on end about how stubborn I am, or how headstrong I am, you should know that I will delete them immediately.
:)
-D.F.T.B.A.-
Mina;)
Confession: Currently, I've narrowed down what I want to be to
A) Author (this has been the only thing I've ever wanted to be since 2nd Grade)
B) Teacher (What a load to get off my chest, peoples' response is always something along the lines of "noble" and "poor", same thing with author)
C) Stage/ Set Design
A funny story is that I am extremely anal about visuals. You should see my bedroom. It is my favorite place in the world, because I have such a beautiful bedroom, and I just really love it in there. Even when my room is a mess, it looks pretty. Anyways, when I was on film duty in theatre, I was extremely crazy about everything aligning correctly on camera. I would look through the lens, the run to the set and tweak something, then run back and check, then run back to the set and tweak again. Mind you, I would move something less than an inch in any direction. I just really like for things to align, and for things to be strait and even, and when they don't, it sort of hurts my eyes. I'm a bit of a perfectionist when it comes to some things, but my locker... That's a whole other story. Something new falls out every time I open it. I keep so much crap. I'm so messy, that it's disgusting. Around 3 people, including Maia and Ella, have asked to clean my locker for me. My dad calls me some sort of hybrid of a perfectionist and a free spirit. I don't make any sense.
11:57! I've been cutting is so close these days!
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