Wednesday, December 12, 2012

Day 65

Do you ever get the feeling that you're just tired? Not that you need more sleep, but like your mental capacity has been exhausted?

My L.A. Lit teacher spoke a bit about passive-agressiveness during one of the last classes. I think I may be a little too passive-agressive.

I shrug things off when I shouldn't. I've let things go when I shouldn't have. I forget without forgiving. The worst part is that, I could go weeks just thinking that I'm "tired" of a person, or that I don't want to talk to them anymore, and yet I will go ahead and sit next to them. Or I will go ahead and share a joke with them. I will go ahead and share, share, share. I keep telling myself that I'm wasting time, that I should be more progressive. I keep telling myself to break old habits.

Even though my head seems so clear, my actions are not. I'm really starting to hate it.

The aggressive part is that I eventually explode. I explode and my insides end up every place that I don't want them.

I feel like I'm about to explode, and I'm trying so hard to keep my seems together. The last week or so has been tremendously rough, and I just don't know why I don't just speak up once and awhile.

Anyways, I feel like these posts have been suffering, because I'm not exactly happy. I desperately want to change that.

-D.F.T.B.A.-
Mina;)

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